I don't think you should blame yourself here. I think what you feel living the way you described is perfectly normal reaction. What you described here isn't something one needs to accept and be ok with.

I don't think things need to be perfect or go your way but they should be satisfying. And they aren't. It certainly isn't your fault.

The reason you are so dependent on it might be because you are not satisfied. Whenever I felt I was not satisfied I felt overly attached. When you are satisfied then you feel content.

This relationship doesn't bring you satisfaction and it is expected from what you described. So you feel insecure and who wouldn't. It is unsettling. What does your t say?

I am concerned you are blaming yourself. Your husband lied about something , he got caught, he is not treating you right anymore but you feel you are the one who needs to make changes. Rather than him. How long you've been married? When did this change occur?

If you two were married for many years and now this happens and sure you need to work through and try to fix it. But if you just got married shouldn't this be a honeymoon happy time?

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