I understand with what you are saying. Had I known that as an adult I would be diagnosed with a mental illness, I probably wouldn't have become a parent. Don't get me wrong I adore my kids but there are days I'm absent and they need me to support/encourage them. I'm constantly worried about their own mental health that I have them in therapy to ease anxieties they have bc it may lead to other problems. I don't know if that makes sense but if I can't help them at least someone else can. My episodes/hospitalizations have caused damage. We're just stabilizing.