People look at me weird when I explain that I feel my mind & me are at odds. That I don't have control over what I do & don't like. For example, I'm a vegetarian, not even by choice, I WANT to like meat & seafood, I just can't stand it, it's like trying to eat something rotten, I just can't. I want to have an appetite but often just cannot eat. If I try to overcome myself I'm met with incredible anxiety & dysphoria that usually manifests itself through physical symptoms like headache, nausea & muscle aches & stiffness. I feel like I'm trapped inside a body & mind that doesn't want me to reach my full potential.