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Originally Posted by Wanderlust90
Thanks cashart. It is abit like a spiritual crisis. I had direction in my childhood & teen years. I've lost it. I'm still in search of meaning & I feel like until I find it I'm perpetually on the fence, never able to figure out what I stand for, even what I like. That's the weirdest thing, how do I not know what it is that makes me happy?
I hope your son continues to make progress. I suppose non of those methods would be ideal for me but I know with perseverance & some therapy I would be able to overcome my weird food anxieties.
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I totally relate to the continuously changing outlook. I think most of us without many clearly stable periods can.
What I try to do is use depression or relative stability to pick one thing I found meaningful during periods of (mild) mania which seem to have been the most consistent across such periods and then stick with that. Even if nothing has much/any meaning for you now, just focus on that one thing in the knowledge that it probably has meaning as you felt it before, and do everything to avoid distraction or doubt. Just try and do it, continue with it. Even if you progress slowly and you don't feel any passion for it, at the moment. However, be sure to allow yourself some peace during depression just enough for the veil to lift enough to proceed without anxiety-inducing effort, which would consequencently only deepen the depression.
For me, it is very difficult to continue doing things I done during periods of mania, just because of the association with failure due to mania. However, forcing yourself to do them will eventually dissociate that feeling from what is you wanted to do. Given time, you can continue with it with more and more ease.
Far to often, lack of focus is the only enemy of achievement. We might actually achieve quite a lot, in some way more than others, we experience more (both more things and more deeply) but it just doesn't fully materialise.
Hope you feel more direction soon.