I want to keep my T. I think that he's good for me. The whole reality checks every session and me not being afraid of telling him absolutely everything on my mind. I restarted the ad that I thought was poison last night. I've only slept 4.5 hours. I'm leaving meds up to pdoc. The abilify is my anti manic obviously it's not working right now. If pdoc wants to change it I fear ip for me. I have to many comitments to go but I'll have too. I'm scared of all that's up in the air. Tattoo would be a great idea but I'm afraid I'll regret it later. . I'm so angry and so scared.