Hi Tobi; and Welcome!

I am so sorry you have had such a struggle due to your past history w/ your mother & that realationship. May I just say, WELL DONE YOU !! for getting to this point in your journey, with therapy and lots & LOTS of work! That's amazing, & you should feel really good about the stability you've been able to acheive. Congratulations; that's very impressive.

Intimacy is not the easiest thing in the world imo, no matter where one is starting from. Yes, there are counselours and therapists and doctors who specialize in that area, but I dunno whom you would be the best fit for, it's such an individual thing! My suggestion would be, if you have a solidly trusting relationship wit your current Psych Therapist, to ask what & whom s/he would reccommend. It sounds as tho the two of you have already had quite a journey together, and s/he might be best equipped to evaluate where to go from here.

Learning to trust again is a serious thing, and the precursor to any successful relationship in my experience....and it of course doesn't occur all at once. But you knew that, right?

to you,

Chyia, wishing you great things!