Before I start, due to some abusive past relationships I have serious trust issues when it comes to other people. So much that the only person I trust, and will ever trust, is myself. I cannot mentally cope with people lying to me, no matter how big or small of a lie, my anxiety is too vicious to handle when it comes to feeling betrayed.

A few months back my boyfriend (of almost two years) ended up coming home from the pub after driving over the limit. He was clearly tipsy - he'd had well over 3 pints I could tell by the way he was walking. I had a serious go at him and told me if he ever did it again he would be betraying my trust. He knows how I feel about safety when it comes to drinking or even texting whilst behind the wheel.

It took a few weeks of me questioning him when he was going to the pub and driving home. After a while I began to back off for his sake as I knew that he didn't need pestering about it and that I had to let go and just trust that he wouldn't do it again.

Last night, I went to meet him at the pub which is rare, then we drove home in separate cars. We'd got indoors and he was clearly tipsy, again.

I asked him how many pints he'd had. He answered with two.

I told him outright and ask him why he was lying to me. He said he had three. My anxiety hit the roof when I'd realised he's lied to me (as usual when people lie to me about trivial things) and I ended up not sleeping and having a panic attack. This morning I thought to myself "if he got caught out when if actually been to the pub with him, how many times has he done it without me there?"

He goes to the pub between 2-4 times a week.

I asked him outright by text today and he said he'd done it "once or twice, he couldn't remember" since I had a go at him that first night well over six months ago..

I feel so betrayed that he has lied to me, and he's broken my trust. I feel so sick to my stomach. He knows how bad my issues have been in the past. I know this sounds like something so silly, it's a sake of having a pint (I don't mind him drinking or going to the pub for that matter) over the limit (he'd had three pints last night) but it's the fact that he has lied to me after me tell him that if he did it again he betrayed my trust.

I need thoughts on this from outside perspectives please, just so my thoughts can settle in my fuzzy anxiety head.