Not sure why I thought if I reached, someone, anyone, would care. Even if not knowing what to say, just to give me just a few words like "I'm here" or "I care"...or anything would have been better than nothing...not sure why I was dumb enough to reach out in the first place. Having the hope that someone would be there and would care! Not only was I wrong but today I wake up wishing I had the courage to go away... Emptiness... An empty hope...

Don't even know why Im writing this. Im sure 52 people are going to pass it by too...or more. Not really much anyone can say now anyway that will make my empty reach last night...and a morning for the first time without a word when I needed it the most, any better. Or the absolute hopeless I have...the emptiness...the feeling of being completely alone, in every single way...and the absolute wish that I could go away but Im too scared to...a coward.

An illusion. Why I was dumb enough to believe an illusion of someone caring?