That is really ****** you had a dad that did that to you. I think I understand the situation, namely, your own father setting you up or manipulating your feelings and then flipping it on you, maybe throwing it in your face?

It's ****ed up, for. And with my issues, it is worse than it sounds. It makes it sound like I am whining that no one helps me out but it's a lifelong issue in that what you see in your dad or brother is like a reflection of yourself, right? And if it's healthy, then you gain strength and power from seeing a reflection of yourself in your dad. You become a man the way he is a man.... it seems like that's how it works. But when you see a bad reflection of yourself through other men in your family and there's nothing but uncomfortable or cowardly stuff you see-- what do you take from that? Now I get it in that I can't depend on them for anything and all I learned was damaging behaviors and negative thinking.

But it runs much deeper than- the men in my family have failed me! Poor me... I have no help!- but it is bigger than that. I am just now beginning to find the words and understand the situation. Sure it pisses you off and I;m going thru it right now.