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Originally Posted by Wattsherfayce
Recently I've been under a lot of stress in the midst of a mixed episode.
But this is a symptom I haven't had in a few years and it's scaring me. The voices are more complex this time, instead of just hearing my name being called; the voice sounds like a male and I can't pinpoint whose voice it is, but it's being demeaning. I can't remember what it says all the time, but the first one I heard scared the living **** out of me. It said "Wattsherfayce you're a huge disappointment (or dipshit- I can't recall I just remember it starting with 'D')".
Luckily I see my therapist on Monday but I'm scared of going inpatient. My therapist has been pushing me to go to a crisis center, but I'm too scared to hear that they have no beds (so lucky to have one in my city- I know many of you don't have access to such a safe place). They work with the local hospital and I'm scared if I go there that they will also make me go inpatient.
I'm scared of going inpatient because I know they will want to put me on antipsychotics- I am very much against using them. I tried Risperidone- a low dose of .5mg - and now I'm dealing with tardive dysphonia. I don't know if it's going away. They are looking to do a surgery to do a biopsy on my voice box.
Does anyone else hear voices outside their head? How do you deal with it without taking medication? I've been using all the tools I know from DBT but they aren't working much.
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It sounds easier than it is, but just try to register the voices, register the experience but try to think absolutely nothing of it other than thinking of it as a phenomenon, something that just happened, no questions asked. Strange. Not to worry. Move on.
It doesn't mean anything, it just happens. It can happen to the best of us.
I would only go inpatient if it really interferes with your functioning (other than making you anxious at the moment). For example, if it becomes impossible to distinguish between these voices and other real voices, again to the extent that it impacts your functioning.
If it happens continuously, or for long times repeatedly, have you tried listening to (loud) music. You could use earphones, much of the day if you have to.
Maybe it passes and it was a one-time thing (it may return, but years later, it happens).
If antipsychotics really aren't an option, I would suggest using anything to lower your anxiety. Use meds if you have to, for that. If it is dependent on your mood, a change of mood stabiliser may be in order.
Hope it just goes away again or you can just leave it for what it is: a strange, but itself innocent phenomenon.