Hi - kinda nervous about this but here goes, after a year with my therapist she had me start with a psychiatrist today. To this point she had me as clinically depressed/moderate melancholia w/OCD & PTSD. Miracle worker, in 25yrs I've never dealt with my depression this well. As that went "away", hello to hypomania. 3-4+ weeks of it, plus mediating an amicable divorce in between. Hypomania is fading and now irritability and violent thoughts are rushing in. Psychiatrist didn't want to "pathologize me" just treat the symptoms ASAP, but said I'm experiencing a bipolar episode, does that mean I am bipolar? Thought that years ago anyway. I've been burning out lately from all this crap to the point where I actually wondered if any of this is even worth it anymore and that's when I knew I had to start dealing with this via meds. Starting Abilify at night and lithium 3x daily, which I read is bipolar treatment. Not scared or worried, happy to have a target on 25yrs of knowing something was way off and now able to address it properly.