I feel like I"m going through menopause all over again. I had waterproof covers on my pillows and took those off thinking they might be the problem but I'm still hot all night. I have 2 waterproof pads on my bed since it can cause bed-wetting and I'm a little nervous about removing even one until I'm taking my dose mostly at night and haven't had problems. At first I was sleeping so soundly that I needed a Poise pad just in case but now that's not so true. I'll be on the new distrubtion with most at night tomorrow and maybe then I can take a pad off but I'm not convinced that's the problem; I think I'm just hot or having hot flashes.

Also, I seem to be gaining weight. I had really hoped the Seroquel weight would come off and instead I've gained a couple of pounds. To be fair I haven't been up for exercising much since the med change and I've probably been a little too heavy on the carbs under the premise that right now I care more about taking care of my needs even when those are for food. And mostly it's not been that bad; I've eaten 6 servings of salad in 2 days as well as yogurt and cereal and other generally healthy things. So I'm a little worried about this.

My family dr is willing to start metformin and I'll be asking about that as soon as I clear it with my pdoc. My pdoc didn't expect weight gain but she also envisioned me at half this dose.
I'm afraid I'll wind up on more (or more of something) since I'm having a hard time falling asleep. Mostly I stay asleep and I'm still falling asleep hours before I was a month ago but I don't really have time when I have the energy to do a whole lot yet.

I am really feeling anxious because I want this to work so much (NEED it to work so much). I don't want to think about what comes next if this doesn't work. And mostly it is. I'm feeling a bit better and when we get the dosing right starting tomorrow I should improve some more. But I want to feel more certainty that this isn't going to be a problemdrug that I'm stuck with because it's all that works.