Fighting the darkness is exhausting and depleting. Like how you lay in bed, I embrace it by shutting myself off from the world by sitting in my room as much as possible. I draw and paint, watch netflix. I think of it as recovery time. I need time to just be alone and let this wave of depression work its way in and out of me. It's like a train going 100 mph - it's going whether I like it or not, and if i try to stop it i will hurt myself.

So cut yourself some slack, do what you need to do to take care of yourself, and hopefully the depression will leave as quickly as it arrived.