I know obsession is a bit of a bipolar problem. I have had one demi-obsession of sorts for as long as I've been seriously bipolar I wanted to maybe get some feedback about. I brought this up with my p-dr (who is also my t) and he kind of didn't get it. When I first got sick w/ bp (first mania), I was emailing my ex-boss a lot in part because he was giving me good advice in my new job (which is the same as his job) and he and I also kind of chat about things that are not work related - like videogames or music or whatever. I clearly went overboard emailing him when I went manic - I know it had this obsession tinge.

Now that I've been diagnosed (going on almost two years), there are relatively few people who know about it - my ex-boss because he was sort of in the center of it (he came to the hospital to see me the one time I was IP), one of my friends, and my family and my partner. So I try very hard to stay in the closet with bp, but I still get very stressed about work and a lot of it surrounds trying to work while being sick. So I find it's hard with work and bp being the two big things on my mind to not reach out to him because he's one of the few people who knows about bp and about my work (my family wouldn't understand my work).

he's not really great for me - he's behind me in timezones so he'll often email me late here. the other reason i think he's not great for me is because he'll sometimes not respond to emails and other times he'll respond 10 times in a row. and i think it's a little irregular vs something being a kind of more regular pattern for me.

anyway, i guess i would say my attachment is a little unhealthy, but it's not really obviously dangerous. it always heads that way when i get manic though. but even when i'm healthier, sometimes i think when he gives me advice, i listen a little too readily. is there a good way to talk oneself out of being too attached to someone? i don't have romantic feelings about him (he's not very good looking), but i really like talking to him.