It's difficult to even understand forgiving myself. I don't know why she terminated with me. So I don't know what I did wrong. Now my behavior when she terminated me was something I'm not proud of, but I was reacting in pure panic. I couldn't access my logic at the time. I don't beat myself up over that.

About my definition of forgiveness... I was always taught that forgiveness meant the way lolagrace described.

I have never chosen to forgive someone. It just kind of happens. I just let the frustration go. Like you all said, I just move on. I had a church mentor abandon me. I didn't choose to forgive her. I knew I had forgiven her when I could understand her position. Same with my mom. I forgave my mom when I could understand why she did the things she did. But I'm not going to have that with ex-T. Maybe...maybe the board of psychology will require my ex-T to tell me why she terminated? Doubt it though. If only I could understand...