I am so angry! I can't even function because my feelings of anger are so overwhelming to me. I've never felt this angry before in my life and there's no good reason for it. I texted you to ask for help processing this overwhelming emotion, but you haven't responded. This is only the second time you haven't responded to a text of mine. Are you trying to make me less "dependent"? Force me to deal with things by myself? We'd been meeting twice a week for over a year when you decided I should come less often. Then last week, you decided the every other week twice a week visits weren't "indicated". You didn't talk to me about it. You just said I had to stop and go to once a week, which in reality should be fine, but you didn't think about ME or where I was emotionally when you made that call. I'd told you the week before that my depression was worse. We'd just finished discussing the abuse I endure in marriage, but you had an agenda that didn't consider ME! When I showed emotion about the change, you said it was a sign of dependency and an "unhealthy dynamic". We'd never had an unhealthy dynamic until I showed an emotion. Since when is any emotion not allowed in therapy?
You said you realized you had a problem with caretaking, which is why you made the change, but you don't caretake me. Whenever I ask you about something, you remind me to take care of myself and put myself first. Maybe you think if you don't respond I'll be more likely to leave the abuse. I feel abandoned. And angry. And very angry that I'm so angry I can't function in my normal life and no one is here to help me process the emotion.
It's one text. You said texting was fine. I do it less than once a month. Answer it and say you're sorry I'm hurting or we'll talk about it therapy or something. Acknowledge me as a human being. You said you would. It's the least you can do.
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