Rayna,
Thanks. I'll keep doing my best. I'll try the SMART thing. My issue is even in fellowship, I dont have fellowship, a lot of the time, and thats whats so painful. It was always like that for me, even as a small child in school.
I think its really helpful for me just to be understood, I can deal with it, whatever I have to legitimately face, or I'll do my best.

I feel really scared right now.

river.