Hi Max. I do not think you are having a pity party. Everyone wants someone in their life... Friends, companion. I am feeling 90% of the same things you are. I am so alone. It is hard for me because I am introverted and gay and spent most of my life in the closet so I'm lacking in social skills in that area. I do have friends but I find myself pulling away from them because they just don't understand. They want to help but then they go home to their families. I want someone who can come home to me, not disappear when I am loneliest.

Sorry that I don't have any words of hope to offer. I am hanging in and hope you will too.