I wish you good luck but there are too many practical obstacles for me now that I am older. It's not like I've ever even been close, ever. If I couldn't find someone to even take any interest in me that way, ever, over my whole life, I'll never find someone now with all of my health issues. I'm gay and extremely introverted and frankly not attracted to very many people. I've been in the closet most of my life so I don't have many of the necessary social skills in that area. It's not like I "practiced" on girls when I was growing up, I kept to myself and that seems to have established me firmly as "friend". If there was anything remotely attractive in me body or personality-wise as anything other than a friend then I think someone might have approached me at least once over the course of my life. When I gained the realization that I had to go out and try I got nothing but rejection. That was when I was young, skinny, and healthy. Now I am old, fat, bald, riddled with health issues that keep me from going out, where would I find someone if I don't even have a desire or energy to go out and look anymore. And I can't have anyone at my house anymore because I need my privacy to take care of my health problems.