Hi All here, great thread to support whole-person healing! Thank you!
When I feel very lost and dark, I come to Psych Central forums because I find company. I'm not so alone here. It's a sort of AA meeting for me. I'm grateful to everyone for the sharing.

So, yeah, today I feel lost and dark. Mostly, I am full of grief over life's losses, anhedonia, and fatigue. I take meds, have tried so many, but nothing reaches the deep depression. Everything makes me tired. the strong anhedonia persists. Hesitant to ask for stimulant, so drink lots of coffee. I eat too much sugar, but otherwise healthy. I have pets, acupuncture and massage, which help, but not enough exercise. I see a good therapist. Good family support from afar. I can survive and work. Days off are too often non-productive. There is some depression cycle that I can't pin down, even though I track it on a calendar. That's it.