Thank you Lanadelle. yes, another day achieved. but i dont feel a survivor. i feel a pathetic human being.

Open Eyes: thank you for all the infos you gave me, they were really helpful. i couldnt stop thinking "you're right". im trying to grow up from where it was interrupted. i have cried in presence of my T only after 8 years of therapy. im crying a lot these days and wish i could end my life because it seems unbearable. and i agree in your definition of shattered. thats how i feel. not integrated my T would say. thank for the time and the patience to write it all down. it is very helpful to me.