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Originally Posted by wiretwister
Passion takes many forms
I know I have had and lost them
In the beginning everything was a passion , 100% of effort was required in every venture , be it a ball game or working around the house
As a teenager passion shifted to cars and speed
faster was never enough
Guns .. could never have enough
Twentyish found love
passion became very physical .. mental .. all consuming ..
Religion consumed every inch of passion there was in me ..
Work became a calling , the most consuming passion I had ever felt .. I was making a difference
Speed , guns , physical , mental , religion all burned brightly then went out
only work survived
then that one day in 2012
a single point in time , a single event changed my life completely ... my passion for work went out
my world crumbled
panic and meds was the only path I could find to survive
those same meds that drove me inpatient
four long years filled full of pills have allowed the panic to be over come , but the passion has never returned
there is no passion of any kind left
mood flating drugs
just life burning out I may never know
all was black
then came soon-kyu
I knew it would not last but my god it felt so good
passion
clutching at straws I Know
but passion
but so far away .. out of reach ...
then that light dimmed.....
my manic girl I found
. passion
hope
reachable
dare I say lust
fear
excitement
all were there
for the first time since before that day in 2012
My friends here rightly so put that light out
it would hurt others too much
it would distroy my family
so I dimmed that light myself
with this realization I could never have passion again without hurting others I decided to stop trying
Can you live without passion
maybe ... but I no longer want too
it's just a matter of time now
Tigger .
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I'm trying to figure out how to get mine back or what to do if I can't have it. I hope you can find passion that doesn't burn out. Im not sure that kind of passion exists, but as far as i can tell its the only kind worth striving for. Let us know if you have success. Thanks for the post.