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Old Feb 28, 2016, 06:00 PM
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Member Since: Dec 2015
Location: Costa Rica
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I don't want people to suffer how I suffered and still do.

Best friend killed herself with a gun.
Fiancé killed himself with Coke overdose.
Dad pushed Step Mom down the stairs while she was in a wheelchair.
Coma then died.
My lover lost 250 lbs then gained it all back plus more, eating himself to death.

I've been sick with suicidal idealation. But was hospitalized before I could act. Probably won't ever do it. Belief that you go to hell if you kill yourself.
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Bipolar 1
Day Vraylar 3 mg. Wellbutrin 150
Night meds Temazepam 30 mg or lorazepam
Hasn't helped yet.
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