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Old Feb 28, 2016, 06:53 PM
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bluebike has some good ideas there. i just put on some music, to try to calm my anxiety and busy mind. the song was playing relentlessly in my head anyway, may as well play it for real.
i'm still hypo, as in some racing thoughts, hyper sexual, irritable. I'm up & down with the cleaning sprees. Today, I'm sort of apathetic and feel very meh looking at the projects i started last week.
Trying to choose my focus carefully. Telling myself keep moving, did dishes, laundry, made the kiddo a fruit salad, appreciating the redwood trees. they really are a cool tree, furry bark reminds me of a bear. rawrr.. looking at funny memes on fb...
i wish i had paints and canvas, but really i think i'd just sit there in apathy too. maybe i'd draw a little dot and call the painting "meh". then laugh. wonder who'd buy that, someone maybe lol.
just get through the minutes, one at a time. another mood is always around the corner.
something inspiring will come along and you'll feel like a bursting star, maybe. maybe not, idk. i tell myself these kind of things.