your not alone cosmic, many others feel like that too, and they are afraid to be honest and open, and you were strong to come and be honest with your thoughts and feelings, i know its hard and confusing when you go against the social norm, but i hope you embrace yourself as an individual and allow yourself to be free from self hate. and skeezyks, rubyx, kipper-bang. your responses were great, its great knowing there are people who dont judge not matter what their own views are.