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Wanted to let you know that I understand how you are feeling..... for I too wonder if I will morn the death of bio-father when it happens, for he was never really a part of my life growing up - so why should I.

... I personally feel that if I cry at all when he dies it will be for what was lost to me and not so much for him as a person.

I suggest that you look into a book I placed in the book section called:

Feelings Buried Alive Never Die
Radical Forgiveness

- both of them may be able to help you release some of the inner emotions that keeps you feeling guilty when you should not.

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