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Originally Posted by velcro003
That is nice, isn't it? No one knows how much I hate myself, except my T. My family thinks my life is all sunshine and rainbows, and while most of my friends know I am in therapy, and my closest friend knows the most, she doesn't know the extent of it.
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Yeah, I dunno about you (maybe you feel this too?) for me, there's this pressure to be upbeat, and come across as positive, uplifting and full of self-love.
Especially when life is objectively decent or people say "oh your life is ok, what do you have to be unhappy about?"
The self hatred is still there of course, and it's not like I can tell friends / loved ones "I hate myself so much, I wish I was never born" because they'll be like "You're a good person!" when I'm thinking "if only you knew how horrible I really am underneath the facade."