Krinkle, (((hugs))) you hang in there. Do rehab if you can go to it, and go to the meetings. That is your lifeline because i will tell you something There is more love in an AA meeting than there is in most churches cause people don't judge you there. And we don't here either. You can do this and i have faith in you. Remember you are not alone... tc and blessings! I am proud of you! Yes you for posting this!