Today was a busy day with lots to do, but not much going on socially. I was hoping that some people would call me but they didn't. I had left voice mails with them.

Yesterday I was feeling pretty bad. Felt like I had a lot of self-pity. I was doing fairly well with my finances and then some unexpected bills came from a couple of doctor visits I had. So the pretty good amount of money I saved up is about to be gone.

Also I have been feeling like I have to really put myself out for other people. And when I do, I don't get much back in return. I don't expect anything, it's just that I practically don't get anything back, or they expect me to do more. It seems like no one is putting themselves out for me. And then I'm feeling like I'm getting older and there's nothing in the future to look forward to. But there seems to be some things coming up that I am dreading. There are times when I get bad feelings when I first wake up in the morning.