I'm so sorry that you are feeling that way. I pretty much feel the same way. I have never been married and never had any kids. Getting married for me now, or even getting into a loving relationship, seems totally out of the question.

I only have one good friend. He's an old man (80) and he has some limits as to what he can do. He can't drive, so there are times when I feel like when we get together, I have to tote him around. I get sick of it at times. He's not the very best friend I could have, or ever had. There are times that he can get on my nerves with his criticizing. And there had been times that he would make an unwanted advance at me. I'm not the least bit interested in him in a sexual/romantic way. But, he doesn't get it. I wonder if he has Alzheimer's or dementia. One sign of that is if someone acts inappropriately (such as making an unwanted sexual advance).