I lost three children to parental alienation, I have hep c, I have bipolar II (mostly depression, mixed irritability) and used illicit drugs to self medicate in my youth.

All of the above carry huge stigma's. I, because of my past of undiagnosed bipolar, have made bad decisions that come with it. I just don't have a lot in common with other woman. Woman without mental illness, happy families (I have remarried and have another child) or are disease free. I have had bad responses when I have admitted to one or two, but find woman tend to move away from me or just look at me like my head is missing. Add this to me isolating, not by choice, and at times seeming unreliable. I don't "chat on the phone" or go on lunch dates when I am in a depressed phase.

I feel much shame and I do not trust people to not judge me. Yes, I have had therapists and I also know if forgive myself, the world will (ahh ...bologna!!, were it that easy...)

Asking because it would be nice to have female friends but I don't have a lot in common with most woman.