It seems more logical that each of us perceive an individual imagining of what really "exists". Actually being a deity seems like a lot of extra stress. Most people do create their own god after their own desires anyway, so maybe you are doing a more unique version of your own god being YOU instead of (*another deity choice*). Other people are older than you so do you accept they were born before you (in this universe) with the same ease as accepting the new babies just got here (in this universe) also? I never thought about that before... depression can make me want a different "me" in a different universe sometimes... but that is not quite the same thing, is it? I don't know