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Originally Posted by growlycat
You are not trash. The media loves to bash millenials but all generations have been once called useless (Gen x , we were the "slackers")
I work in a corporate environment and believe me those at the top don't do a whole lot but make more than everyone else. They have time to chitchat and walk around w/ a cup of expensive coffee. They all think they deserve where they are today but all I see are spoiled people whom grew up with advantages no one else has. Those are the people that make me sick, not people like you.
Do what you can--it sounds like you are making efforts to get work so don't beat up on yourself. Is there a food pantry near you? You deserve help. You sound tired but motivated--you won't stay where you are for long.
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I hope not. Like I said, I have an offer for a job; and I'd been looking into freelancing and actually have a couple of offers.
I guess what bothers me is...I didn't end up on welfare because of unforseen circumstances. I got myself on here on purpose: my plan was to leave home, get on the dole for my basic needs for a couple of months until I can find a job and support myself from there on. Clearly, it didn't work out that way.
Moreover, is just that we all know welfare is shameful; it's for leeches and lazy people who don't want to work, the scum of society. If I had saved allowances given to me instead of binge-eating them, I would have had at least a little money when I left (not enough though, for anything but a little food...). Or feeling like I'm just weak, just a coward, that I couldn't stand living at home because my internet was always being taken away, because I was expected to work, or whatever else my real motivations were. I mean, yeah, I was breaking down mentally, but only because I'm too weak to deal with my emotions myself. Maybe. I don't know. I feel like I just did a horrible, dishonorable, completely scandalous and scummy thing by leaving when I did, how I did.