very good thoughts on the topic here. I agree propranolol can be very good for physical symptoms of anxiety. In particular if any of your anxiety symptoms are trauma-related because it decreases the hyperarrousal that can come with PTSD.

I do understand where you're coming from with the desperation. It was a few years ago for me but I was in pretty rough shape by the time I saw a psychiatrist too and remember how scary all this is. You will get through. Good luck!