I feel ****ing miserable today. Tried staying away from here for the weekend in the hopes I could think more positively, but nothing changed. I woke up today and cried until I left for work. I just want to still be at home, in my bed, not having to think or move or act. My sleep is so disrupted, I'm just exhausted today. I'm trying so hard, but I just don't want to anymore. I'm just so tired.