My pdoc says we have no idea what my baseline is. I can be in a deep, deep depression, then it gets better. But how much better is really better or just less depressed but still depressed?
For example, when I'm what I consider to be a normal mood, I tend to still sleep a lot, don't clean at all, don't want to go outside, and basically have no energy. But this feels normal to me. Writing it down it looks at least a little depressed. But I'm not actively self-harming, not planning a suicide, able to make myself participate in the household, and not constantly wanting to crash my car every time I drive.
But now with a new medication, will my normal change? I hope so.
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dx: bipolar II
wellbutrin
citalopram
lamotrigine
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