Hello pianogirlplays: It's been a few days now since you posted this Thread. I hope that you are now feeling better. I unfortunately often feel overwhelmed by negative self-deprecating thoughts. Sometimes I just begin to feel like it is just too difficult to keep going on day-after-day. Being here on PC, replying to members' Threads helps me. I hope you too have something in your life that helps you... perhaps playing the piano? I send warm thoughts your way with the hope that you can begin to find inner peace.