I might be in a hypo or mixed state, idk yet. I've been really hyper this past week, talking faster, more irritable, had a few outbursts, I actually had a plan for suicide last week obviously I didn't follow through. Been exercising kind of more than I usually do, I did 400 squats today, I wish I was exaggerating, but I'm not, I really did do that many. Plus I've been taking up to 4 showers a day, something I only do when I go up. Idk my thoughts have been all over the place, between feeling euphoric, to feeling paranoid and like crap all at the same time. Luckily I don't have any money in the bank or else I'd be buying some stuff. Like I said idk, but that's how I've been feeling, feeling like I should stop my meds that I don't need them cause I feel really good, or they're poisoning me (I gone between both thoughts this week). I've been doubting I really have BP and thinking my Mom is right and I'm just an "attention seeker" and not really this sick. Idk, my mind is racing, and I'm having trouble keeping on track, I should stop writing now, yeah I'm done rambling.