well .. its hard for me to have close friends; when i start getting close i tend to withdraw to keep from causing any harm or disappointment or expectations... i don't like it because i do want good friends - its just that i cant have close friends... i have tried - fell in love even.. but it all has just caused me to be more withdrawn and afraid of making friends, because i really am more comfortable just by myself.. even though i enjoy being around people sometimes and want to be sometimes, its just when i do - bad things tend to happen... maybe other people wouldnt see them as bad things, but for me im constantly analyzing things and end up having some sort of issue - so not by choice but by demand i am not able to make friends - have only had 1 person that i would say that i truly let close to me and it destroyed my heart so it just made things worse - haven't had any friends for a long time, sure i talk to people from time to time but im a complete actor when it comes to being around people - atleast until i run out of energy to act and am unable to hide those things any longer; in which case i withdraw, if i can, and if i cant, people start pestering me about my "feelings" - like they really care :/ but they cant care - i know

i also have other problems so its not just AvPD ... but im sorry you have a hard time making friends too - because i would like to make friends but part of me refuses to, avoids it, afraid, the other part wont let myself - subconsciously and everything

i find its easier to make Acquaintances ... and you can do that on the computer - through the forums - or video games.. dont have to get too close to them and if things start getting scary you can just disappear - i have practice escapism for some time so i have used video games for a long time - sorry you are struggling with this

wish i knew something better to say to help - but honestly i dont; i hate it