With what I have to say for myself, I wonder if it's similar to what you are talking about? I am nearing 60 years old now. Lately, I feel that my life is just running it's course. I'm feeling like there's no reason to try to have goals; such as getting a better job, trying to make more friends, finding a new love in my life, and other things. That does scare me. I feel like I don't have much ambition to improve myself.

I want my life to be better than it is now. But I'm feeling lost and clueless as to know what to do or how to go about it. In my younger days, I had just gone out to take risks to be happier. And it did work!

I find now that making friends is difficult now at my age and also making a job change seems impossible. The only thing I have to look forward to later on in my life is selling my condo and getting fairly good money for it. But what happens after that?

I do have dreadful thoughts when I get up in the mornings and sometimes during the days. I'm feeling that there will be more doctor visits as my health may decline. It seems like there's just no real thrills to look forward to.