You should. I think when you finally get away from him you are going to do so much better. And you have plenty of things you've written on here and you can also print out as evidence. If he is mis-treating you he is doing it others and they may not be as able as you are too see what he is doing.

That conversation alone is pretty irresponsible. If I told my pdoc that I wasn't safe with my meds and had taken steps to protect me she'd be worried and would make me do a safety plan. If I said I was aware I could access other means she would have asked what those are and assessed if I was in danger from them. But never, ever, would she laugh it off. Nor should anyone treating patients; we are taught (and some people apparently forget) that it is always better to be safer than sorry with suicidal thoughts. I remember being so angry once at work because my patient was suicidal with a plan and the nursing home's response was that he couldn't hurt himself there. First, yes he could and 2nd he certainly could when he got home. But the other hundred times I had a suicidal patient it was taken very seriously and should have been. Gesture or not it is dangerous and unpredictable who will do what. I've worked with brain injured patients who had their injuries because of failed suicides using all kinds of techniques.

I cn't imagine a dr like yours. I had a bad one or two but never that bad.