Everyone says this diagnosis gets better with time.

I'm failing to see how.

I quit my job in a fiery rant of emails that seem insane and blew up my professional network so I'm unemployed and likely will stay that way. I'm no longer manic, but don't have the references now to get another job. I've gained weight on the medications and have lost a bunch of my hair. I feel like an ugly failure.

Does anyone want to be weightloss/BP buddies? I could use a friend. I have trouble making them now... there's too much shame and negativity going on.