My standby therapist will most likely retire in about a year. After hearing some of your experiences on the forum, I don't look forward to the task. So today, I asked my ex therapist to think about who she'd recommend, or as she meets others to let me know, so I could start vetting them now. I don't think I'll ever need one again, but you never know. Things happen.

Sorry that it's not an easier path for you.