I'm sorry you are terrified loco. You were brave to open up like that. Maybe now you have opened up new avenues of discussion with your T. Maybe now you can move forward with therapy. It is not easy to talk about or admit transference. I felt like an idiot after I told my T. He made no comments and we never discussed it after. He kind of avoided my expression and I was grateful he didn't make a big deal out of it. I t was like I got it off my chest and then concentrated on my issues. Don't be terrified be proud that you were able to open up and I hope it goes well for you.