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Originally Posted by Yismymindblank12
I overreacted sorry. I had little sleep. I've cried alot because my heart is aching for my best friend who died. I was hurting alot for hours. I want this pain to go away badly, but it won't. My therapist stopped all contact to me. I tried to contact who both tried to set me up with, but no response period. So I was abandoned by my therapists I can afford now I got no one.
I have to live with doing all I can to deal with relationships living with badly needing true intimacy and unconditional support I needed and fighting my emotions not to cry a river over anyone now, because of the guilt of failing my friend. He didn't deserve to die like this. I'm doing everything to live for him, and I can't tell you how I need to hear his voice now to tell me he's sorry and he loves me like a brother.
Even now I'm crying my eyes out. I'm broken completely. It's very hard to just be same together and hopefully have any chance for any togetherness with anyone.
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Ok...maybe I'm a bit toughened up to being ranted at, especially first thing in the morning. I certainly don't want to see you crying. I'm far from a man vs. Woman type, cripes I've little boys to raise and the last thing they need is sexism from a woman's point of view.
Was reading about Depression Recovery, someone here shared an acronym yesterday that led me to reading about that. It included bipolar recovery too, but for me that doesn't apply , so I took away on the depression aspect.
Creating good sleeping behaviors is part of recovery. Of course for me, that's not just important for emotional health but my physical health, which I was reminded the other morning after not much sleep and a stressful morning as was under verbal attack by a pre adolescent mood, and voila...panic attack with nausea and shaking one would have thought I'd had low blood sugar, but it's my central nervous system. Once they realized I was ill, they halted and I took a rest.
Don't know why I'm rambling about this other than to say that rest is very critical.
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