im unable to SI due to this thing with my bf and i ....some sort of bet ..what a stupid way to get better whatever...anyway i sooo want to go back....i want to go back to not eating anything...i remember the times where i would only eat half a banana...i want to be thin...im a whale...i look like a whale who is bloated....im an overweight whale on steriods...i just want to be thin...i want to be that tiny figure...the one who actually smiled when her boyfriend said i had sunken eyes....mainly that made me happy because i knew i was loosing weight...i dont care if i look terrible to others...i dont care...i just want to be thin again...