not so much....I have to keep thinking about this...it helps me...
I have so much anger inside....I see so much abuse and ignorance..
I see so many mistakes being made with health care...
I see so many problems in America ...I see such hate..

and I don't want to turn that anger against myself....
I have done that so much....I am guilty about some things ...
but I don't have a criminal record ...no yet....
I have an idea about that...I see others turning their anger on
themselves and others who are not guilty...I wonder how much suicide is anger turned in....I am just wondering..they beat themselves up because they cant beat the person who has wronged them...

love is the antidote for me right now