You know. King of the sack at least I don't have to shave his back

We used to eml back and forth 3-6 X a day.
I'm not a teenager. I should be able to think like a grown up.
But there's something missing from my day.
How to fill?
I don't even remember how I met him.
Sometimes I shop around for people who may want to stay on my ranch when I'm not here as caretakers.

I'm depressed.