You are not the bad guy.
Like Sister said, I have also had session in which I feel so disconnected and end up walking out of the session feeling worse than when I came in.
I would always assume that the disconnection was my fault since I am the patient and he is the therapist.
So how could he do anything wrong?
Until one time when he took full responsibility for the session being disconnected. It was very surprising and I found myself sort saying things like, "No... It couldn't be you. It was because of me."
Not true... sometimes it can be the T. Your T has already admitted to you that he is overworked. And he apologized. Now please realize that I'm not saying this to suggest you should dismiss what happened... I'm saying it to help you realize that you are not the bad guy here. If perhaps his is a bit burnt out and this is affecting his work.... well, of course this is not a good thing, but.... T's are human (sort of) and this sort of thing can happen... I urge you not to cancel your next session, rather go ahead in and try to work this out with him.
I have had sessions, too, where my T keeps firing questions at me. They are a rarity, as normally he is fairly quiet in allowing things to naturally come out... I had to tell him to shut up, lol, because it was making me so mad.
Take care.
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