Thank you for contributing to this thread. Understanding is very important to me. from what you write, these are the things I understand--probably because it is what I have myself expereinced: missing time/blackouts. Also, I am now aware of my various alters but I cant directly communicate with them. Each one steps out and is the only one that is present and functioning at one time. Also, the only avenue of communication or sharing between alters has been via flashbacks and dreams that were real life expereinces that feel as if I relive them when they occur. In these dreams I can see what is happening to the alter/myself who has dissociated because of the extreme nature of the expereince.

These are the parts of what you say that I am trying hard to but dont really understand: "We have a system where everyone is very separate. It is not chaotic for us. Its just how it is. We enjoy spending time with each other. We also fight. It feels like just being in one room with lots of people, some you like and some you dont.we are separate people so we know what each other wants, likes, doesnt like- just like people do with friends.'

So, am I right when I say that you are telling me that you see yourself as a group, all present and interacting at the same time?

Again, I appreciate your help and sharing.